A few months back I had decided to apply for a grant. The grant would be to help me take my creative practice to the next level.
I had already created my website, blogged and published my first novel. Most of the work had been done by myself and I had assistance with the technical aspects. I had been paving the way to become a writer as I love writing and this is my passion. The grant would support me on a personal level and a financial one. I could attend courses to develop my skills further and also pay for experts to promote me and my work through social media. It was a new grant and would tick all the boxes for me.
After the application, I sent it off and then had to wait many months for the decision. The decision date would be on the 12th of July 2018. Keep this date in your mind as it is important.
In the meantime, I carried on with my new novel “Fated Journeys” I had completed it, but it sat in my folders on my computer for ages why?
When “Forever My Rose” my first novel went out into the big wide world, I was elated, full of enthusiasm and was busy telling everyone about it and promoting it. It was a great buzz. I had been in the papers, on the radio and had interest from Marie Curie, who would help me promote the book as I had promised to donate the funds to them. All was going well and then I got let down, by the people who said that they would support me and the sales even though I pushed hard it just didn’t seem to come. So with this in mind, I parked my new book.
Being More Than Just A Writer
Then I was thinking about my interests, Yes I love to write, but there is a lot more to me than just being a writer. My other interests are exploring and learning all about the Angels and the Spirit Realm. Who they are, where they live, and how they help us. This also included all our loved ones who had passed over. As my mind wasn’t into my own books, I decided to take a new course, I found the perfect one which was full of guided meditations. I took it as it would perhaps relax me, but also open my mind and perhaps receive guidance on my next steps.
I settled down as I had done before. I closed my eyes and was relaxed and as I was told to imagine I was walking along a path in a big open field. I did just that. I was told to focus and look ahead. As I did this, in mind the following came to me.
An Angel And A Guide
As I carried on walking two people were walking towards me and as they got nearer I could see that there was a man and a woman. The man was in a soldiers uniform. I recognised him straight away, as I had met him many years back and he features as the sergeant major in my book “Forever My Rose.” The lady was a nun and she was carrying in her hand her rosary beads. Finally, we were face to face. I asked who she was and what her name was and she showed me that her name was Therese. What I mean by this is that when I asked her I could see the written words “Therese” so I knew this was her name. She told me that she had never lived on the earth plane and that she lived where the Angels Lived. As she spoke to me, I felt my hand lift up from my lap and into the prayer position. I actually saw myself standing at the altar in the church and she was standing in front of me. Next, I moved my right hand and turned it over. As I did, I felt my hand being touched and something was placed in my palm. I do not know what it was but my hand became very heavy. I began to cry and became very emotional as his happened. Then I was standing in front of the soldier and nun again. I spoke to the soldier and asked who he was. He told me he was called “Edward” and that he was a higher being. He said that he supports Theresa and that when she needs help and guidance she will come to him. He didn’t speak that much not like Theresa.
What Message Do You Have For Me Today
I had received lots of information from both Theresa and Edward, but I wanted to know if they had a specific message to give to me today, they had and the message was:
“Finish Your Book”
I thanked them both and then they turned around and walked back in the direction that they had come from and then they were gone. I then returned myself and then opened my eyes and I was sat on my settee with my laptop on the table in front of me. I didn’t want to forget what had just happened so I reached for my notebook and wrote down the whole experience.
I did indeed finish my book and it was published and I posted on Facebook on the 9th July 2018 and told people that it was available to buy. I had been hesitant again to do this, but I did it anyway. On the 10th July 2018, I checked the website I had applied for the grant on. Firstly I wanted to make sure I could log in and secondly to check for any messages. There were no messages about any delays or that the decision date had changed.
Unexpected Earlier Decision Letter
Remember earlier when I told you to remember the decision date? Can you remember? If you can’t here is a reminder it was the 12th of July 2018. However, the decision letter arrived in my email box on the 11th. Yes, the 11th. At first, I didn’t take any notice of the date. I headed straight to site and logged in. I found the letter and opened it. I read it and I was told that I had been unsuccessful, I was full of mixed emotions, confusion and just so very down. I cried lots and so did my daughter we hugged and tried to take in the news. I had set my heart on this and worked really hard. I had had a nervous breakdown and the one thing that got me out of it was writing, so I was sad as the one thing that had helped me, was now hurting me. I felt let down, so much so that I posted on facebook and told my friends I had packed it all in, I had had enough and couldn’t go on. They were all lovely and supportive. I had no glimmer of light. Usually, I am telling people to be positive and that things always work out in the end. One of the main reasons I packed it all in was that I am not a hypocrite. How can I promote that the Angels or Guides are taking care of you and will help you if I have been so badly let down? I couldn’t do that to my friends. If I had no faith how could I expect others to have any?
Angel number 11
It was no use just sitting here thinking about what could have been, so myself and my daughter went outside and we were playing ball. I kept thinking about the date and even said, isn’t it strange it came today the 11th and not the 12th. If it had arrived on the 12th the outcome was the same but there would be no hope or even a message of hope. It didn’t it came on the 11th. I had for many years believed in the Angels and numbers was part of this. I had seen the numbers 11:11 quite a lot just recently and 11:11 or 1111 is also a very powerful message.
Angel number 11 is all about staying positive and learning about positivity. It is also about life purpose and your path. The path is to provide help and a service to others. It is also about developing a life on a spiritual path.
In my eyes the grant would actually limit me, as I am a healer, I help people in there everyday life’s with my words and kind actions. I can be a writer, a healer and a spiritual counsellor. You don’t have to be just one thing.
Playing The Waiting Game
Now I have to wait and see what emerges if anything. Either I have a very overactive imagination or it is indeed all true and I just like anyone else will have to wait until the time is right and the right opportunity comes along.
One thing that did cross my mind was that I am very new to all of this and that believe and trust is a major factor in peoples lives. Why really would anyone trust me or even believe me. It all comes down to validation. I have here been really open and honest about all the factors that have happened to me including what I believe to be failures. By documenting it you can read it and indeed follow this journey, as I will keep you all updated about what happens in the future. Like most things in life, I can only help other people, If I have experienced hurt and let downs myself and showed how I came through it and how we can learn to trust in what we can’t see or feel.
Much love and thanks for reading, until the next time love Ann xx